Re: Rant/Rave: Losing my job
Posted: September 3 18, 2:08 pm
Looking back as I close in on end of career, the one thing I would change is taking more chances.
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I know exactly how you feel and honestly, I'm a little surprised that I haven't lost my job because of it in the past. I have been through a couple of stretches like you describe over my 20+ years with my company. Thankfully I was able to keep my job each time and my bosses were great and let me take the time to get myself straightened out again. I've been lucky with great bosses over my time here.ThatGuy wrote:Last week, I made a stupid mistake and lost my job as a result. I experienced probably the worst two days of my life - and rightfully so. It was a cool job and one I'll probably miss, and I was pretty damn good at it, too.
On the other hand, I've been on autopilot for about 5 years. I've been doing a fantastic job acting like there aren't some serious weights on my shoulders, and I understand better than ever before what it's like when you just avoid your problems/stressors instead of trying to deal with them. I've had more honest conversations with friends and family in the last week than I had in the entire 10 years prior. That part has been good.
I've spent a lot of my life trying to avoid failure and avoid making mistakes, trying to be somebody I'm not for everybody else's sake, and I think at 29 (almost 30) I might finally be starting on the right path. It f*cking sucks and I'm embarrassed to be in this position, but I think a lot of good will come out of it.
Also, the more I've talked with people, the more I've discovered that everybody has their own demons (and it's frequently not just small stuff). Nobody's perfect.