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This whole post is stupid since the woman I want to spend forever with is asleep in my bed right now but here goes. The one that got away keeps haunting me.

I haven't seen her in years but I did talk to her a little bit a few years ago, but I see her family ALOT and it's not possible to just leave me alone or say hi how ya doin, whatever. Nope it's always gotta be a conversation, about their daughter or in the case of her grandmother her grand daughter. For some reason they seem to think I want to know what she's up to and how she's doing. I don't.

It hurts everytime. I will have dreams about her for days afterward and just when I think it's gone that nagging feeling of "what if" creeps back.

Yep, I still think about my OTGA all the damn time, and it's incredibly tiresome.

I'm very, VERY happy with my wife.


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and I still think about the OTGA. Not as often any more...and not in a longing way. But I'll wonder what she's doing, or if I would have been as happy with her as I am now. I can't decide if it's annoying or a blessing. I know that it didn't work, and obviously it didn't work for a reason...so is it a reminder that I wouldn't be where I am without her "getting away"...or is it just an annoyance that my brain won't let go?

Only one person on the planet was interested in me. But I still wonder what would have happened if most women, men, animals, plants, and inanimate objects had expressed some degree of interest, or been willing to accept my money.

I am the same way. Very very happy with my wife, but there is the What Might of Been. I think I live less than a mile from her parents. Also think she became a military wife because of me.

Someone I dated in HS found me on the internet. At my age you expect people to have grayed and put on a few pounds. But man she still has it. I had to cut off communication because I didn't want to mess up my family life.

Joe Shlabotnik wrote:Someone I dated in HS found me on the internet. At my age you expect people to have grayed and put on a few pounds. But man she still has it. I had to cut off communication because I didn't want to mess up my family life.

very dangerous, my wife is very overprotective of that....

better to have a OTGA than a OYSHLGA(one you should have let get away).




just sayin......

M1IRONMIKE wrote:better to have a OTGA than a OYSHLGA(one you should have let get away).




just sayin......

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There's a girl that I still think about almost daily... but I'm very thankful that I let her get away.

Joe Shlabotnik wrote:Someone I dated in HS found me on the internet. At my age you expect people to have grayed and put on a few pounds. But man she still has it. I had to cut off communication because I didn't want to mess up my family life.

That's how this all started a few years ago. I quit facebook because of it actually. This girl got divorced found me, I was the only person on her friends list for nearly a month and she said she only signed up to find me. Well I was with my current gf then and we'd been dating forever. It was REALLY tempting and finally I encouraged this girl to find more friends on facebook, which she was anyway and start dating someone else because I was happy. It's weird because in a lot of ways she was and is what I'm searching for, she's stable, has a couple kids, basically settled down into life. However my gf offers the best of not having kids and being settled into life, life is still an adventure for us and we live it for ourselves not kids. That's appealing to me as well.

So any way the OTGA I think is getting married again soon, but it won't last because he's a real tool according to sources. So that makes me think that the grand illusion in my head of what the OTGA is and offers may be totally fabricated in my mind and reality could be very different.